||[Jul. 15th, 2005|12:28 am]
have you ever sat and really just stared at a corner so long that you see those little sparkles? boredom is such a terrible thing. it's getting so bad that it inhibits my train of thought. regardless of what people say not having a job, not having a car, not having anything to do all day, not being able to sleep until 6 AM is just a terrible thing. I hate to be depressing but I've got no where else to go with all of this. I sleep until 3pm. I go out and do nothing all night. I've become resigned to hating this. I get frustrated for no reason, well i've got reasons but I'm not bringing them up. I'm so in need of a change of perspective that this retarded fascade that has surrounded everything is just coming down. HERE WE GO MEN! TEAR DOWN THIS WALL THERES NOTHING BUT MILK AND HONEY ON THE OTHER SIDE! depressing. let see. i'm not one of those people that likes to sit around and do nothing all day. I hate being lazy. I want a job so badly is hurts. i want something to do. but it's kind of late now. I can't wait to leave here. I'm tired of sitting in my chair and playing xbox. I'm tired of not wanting to eat or sleep. i'm tired of my mom getting on my case just to annoy me. I can't wait to leave. I need to disconnect and figure myself out...